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You scored as Envy. </td> Envy 94% Pride 88% Gluttony 56% Wrath 44% Sloth 38% Lust 25% Greed 19% Seven deadly sins created with QuizFarm.com

anyone suprised?? i'm not.

oh well.. in other news, this week had better go fast, or i'm going to kill it. yes. i will kill the week. haha. oh well.

oh man.. i need to snap out of whatever is going on with me. i should be completely happy. but theres just part of me who just cant be happy, no matter how great my life is. meh. so what else is new.

i'm so overwhelmed with school right now, its not even funny. i really need to figure out how to be organized. rawr. this sucks.

whatever, enough complaining.

Take the quiz: "What Kinda Kiss R U?"

Romantic Kiss
Lying in bed after making love and just doing whatever.

so today was interesting.

first of all, i had intersquad meet for gymnastics. that actually didnt go as badly as i thought it was going to. bars sucked, but oh well.. not much i can do about that. the team looked pretty good tho. so thats good.

then i rushed home and got ready in like 10 mins for derek's uncle's wedding reception dealie, which was pretty cool, i met lots of derek's family. it was amusing.

then derek and i hung out for a while at my house which was fun, and then i went to dance show with stephanie and eric. it was so much fun!! haha ::sarcasm:: oh well. it wasnt that bad i guess. it just kinda sucked, because whenever i hang out with stephanie and eric, i alwayz feel like the 3rd wheel, and i hate it. i dunno, be being retarded. they alwayz just kinda exclude me, which sucks. oh well, i prolly do the same thing sometimes and dont even realize it, so thats alright. i talked to edie and stuff during it so that was cool. there were some pretty funny moments in dance show too.. so that was entertaining.

then edie came over and we ordered a pizza which took an hour to get to my house!!! and then emily and dan came over which was fun. dan seemed kinda freaked cuz the rest of us were super hyper. haha. then i went over to edie's house and we started to watch elf, but i fell asleep.

and that was my night. i'm sure you all care immensely. yes. anywayz.

so now to the me complaining about my life part of this entry.

i dont know whats wrong with me. honestly. like.. i should have nothing to complain about in my life at all. i have lots of friends, even tho my best friend doesnt exist hardly to me anymore, but we wont go into that. i have the most amazing boyfriend ever. i'm doing fairly decently in school. i dunno. i just make little things into much bigger deals than they really are. and i hate it. and i dont know how to change it, or deal with it.

oh wait. one more thing. who ever posted "i'm in love with you" in my last entry, i would really like it if you could email me and tell me who you are. you dont have to of course because i said your post could be anonomous, but if you could, it would be great.

now i'm done.

i stole this from judi who i guess stole this from aimee. but i liked it too.. so here we go.

i dont care anymore. i want you all to post everything you feel about me. positive. negative. anything. i want to hear it. tell me what you think of me. tell me what you hate, tell me what you love. just tell me anything. this can be anonymous too. anything your heart desires.

( you raise me up )

so today was an okay day..

twas pretty boring through school and all.. i got a text message in choir from derek cuz he was sick so we couldnt hang out today. i felt so bad... but yeah. anywayz, survey was fun today, mr. bays and mrs. lee had a fight with drumsticks in the front of our class for about 5 minutes, which was hysterical! everyone had their phones out taking pictures. it was great. i swear mr. bays is not offically a crackhead. oh well. it makes for a funny class.

then practice kinda sucked today. i mean.. not the actual practicing, but everyone else on varsity besides me and rachel and danielle were complaining about all the conditioning and weight lifting that we have to do. they were complaining about how pointless weight lifting is, and how we condition way too much. and i was just thinking like.. come on! i know weights and conditioning suck majorly, and they make you sore as hell, but i know that i am going to get used to it and after a while, i'm not going to be as sore, and i'm going to be stronger for doing it. i dont like doing it, but i know its beneficial, especially now that we actually have a chance to podium at state. isnt now the time to get stronger so we can learn tricks faster and be a better team for it? so i think steph and i need to have a meeting with the whole team about the conditioning, and then with just varsity about the weightlifting and the conditioning. cuz the complaining isnt going to get us anywhere.

the best part of my day tho.. was derek called me and told me that he was coming over!! so he came over only for like.. a half hour or something. it made me lots of happy hahaha, and i was glad that he was feeling a little better.

so.. all in all.. i had a fairly decent day. i'm going to go to bed early tonight cuz i have weightlifting, and then i have voice lessons 2mrw!! eek!! i havent practiced like.. at all.

ugh. today kinda sucked.

we had weight lifting at 7 this morning. ahh!! i hate it! holy crap, i am so sore from gymnastics its not even funny. we've never done this much conditioning before.. so.. it kinda sucks. they only push us to be stronger when we finally get a good team. hahaha. shows how much they care.

then school just kinda sucked. i hate biology. i wanna drop it. i hate AP spanish. i wanna drop it. and i wanna switch the expos class i'm taking next semester to creative comp. school is just sucking basically. but today was a good day in choir, so thats alright. and today in survey, i swear mr. bays was on crack. he was like throwing the recycling bin in to the hallway, chucking pens at people.. he was messed up. like.. seriously. haha. it was hysterical! the funniest class i've ever been in. hehehe

2mrw is derek and my one month!! yay!! my first official one month! yay! hahaha. i'm a dork.

thats about it for now.. cuz i'm tired.

so.. i'm back from the retreat.. and i must say.. i was dissapointed. it was fun.. in someways, but over all.. i was dissapointed. i would have much rather stayed here.

tonight i actually got to see derek which was awesome.. since i hadnt seen him most of the weekend. i went to max and erma's first and got some dinner (go chicken quesadillas!!) and then i drove to dereks. we watched happy gilmore. i love that movie, its so funny.

and thats about it for my day. i dont want to talk about the retreat or anything else at all. overall.. i had a fairly uneventful weekend unfortunately.

new layout! hoorah! i did alot of it myself this time.. but katie was still awesome and helped me get the background picture to work.

i'm leaving for a retreat at 6 tonight. then i'm gone for the rest of the weekend. not quite sure if i'm happy about that yet or not. i wont get to see my derek that much this weekend.. which is sad.. and then.. i dunno. i dont think i can really handle this retreat right now.. just all the religion being thrown in my face... i dont know if i can take it right now. oh well. i'll live.

i going to lunch with derek in a little bit... so, i guess i'll update when i'm back from the retreat. hope everyone has a great rest of the weekend!

What is love?

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing, And your voice caught within your chest?
~It isn't Love, it's Like.

You can't keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right?
~It isn't Love, it's Lust.

Are you proud, and eager to show them off?
~It isn't Love, it's Luck.

Do you want them because you know they're there?
~It isn't Love, it's Loneliness.

Are you there because it's what everyone wants?
~It isn't Love, it's Loyalty.

Do you stay for their confessions of Love, because you don't want to hurt them?
~It isn't Love, it's Pity.

Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand?
~It isn't Love, it's being Unconfident.

Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat?
~It isn't Love, it's Infatuation.

Do you pardon their faults because you care about them?
~It isn't Love, it's Friendship.

Do you tell them every day they are the only one you think of?
~It isn't Love, it's a Lie.

Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake?
~It isn't Love, it's Charity.

Does your heart ache and break when they're sad?
~Then it’s Love.

Are you attracted to others, but stay with them faithfully without regret?
~Then it's Love.

Do you accept their faults because they're a part of who they are?
~Then it's Love.

Do you cry for their pain, even when they're strong?
~Then it's Love.

Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?
~Then it's Love.

Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and elation pulls you close and holds you?
~Then it's Love.

Would you give them your heart, your life, your death?
~Then it's Love.

"there is nothing i hate more in this world then life itself"

derek's away message ^^^


bah. amen to that.


i'm so glad i make a difference to no one.

i guess i'm not a good friend to anyone. oh well.

well.. i fucked up my layout trying to make a new one... so that kinda sucked

but luckily, this one that katie made for me a while ago was still there, so my LJ still looks cool, i still wanna make a new one tho.. it just wasnt working..

i'm getting back into the swing of things with gymnastics and all that, haha except for i am more sore than i have been in the longest time. oh well..

got a nice 4 day weekend going on here.. except for on friday i leave for a church retreat and dont come back until sunday. i really hope its going to be fun.. i'm not going to get to see derek very much this weekend.. so thats kinda sad.. oh well.

i have to work on a spanish project 2mrw afternoon. i hate that class so much. i cant wait until i drop it to take photo. i've alwayz wanted to take a photography class, and now i'll finally get to! hoorah! hehe

hope everyone has a fantastic 4 day weekend before our only full week of school in november. then its turkey time! go thanksgiving!

and with that.. i'm done. haha

directions:
(x) - you've done
( ) - you haven't done
(?) - maybe...

( ) been drunk
( ) been high
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
( ) crashed a friend's car
( ) been to Japan
(x) ridden in a taxi
( ) been in love
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
( ) been fired
(x) been in a fist fight
( ) snuck out of my parent's house
( ) ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
( ) been arrested
(x) made out with a stranger
(x) stole something from my job
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
( ) had a crush on a teacher
( ) had sex
( ) given or recieved oral sex
( ) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
( ) been to Europe
(x) skipped school
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) been married
( ) gotten divorced
( ) had children
( ) seen someone die
( ) been to Africa
( ) had a crush on one of my Live journal friends
(x) Slapped someone I loved
( )Driven over 400 miles to attend a show/festival/fetish ball
(x) Been to Canada
(x) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
( ) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) Thrown up in a bar
( ) Purposely set a part of myself on fire
( ) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been snowboarding
( ) Met someone in person from the internet
(x) Been moshing at a concert
( ) had real feelings for someone you knew only online
( ) taken partially nude/nude photos of yourself
( ) been in an abusive relationship
( ) been pregnant or got someone pregnant
( ) lost a child
( ) gone to college
( ) graduated college
( ) done hard drugs
( ) tried killing yourself
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now
(x) been out of state
(x) told your parents you hated them
( ) faked being drunk
( ) dropped out of school
( ) crowd surfed
(x) met someone famous
( ) told a member of the same sex you had a crush on them
(x) lied to get out of trouble
(x) lied about your age
( ) thrown up from drinking


there ya'll go!! hope it was incredibly informative! muahaha. i'll update for real later

gymnastics season starts 2mrw. whoopee! haha.

yay for the busiest season of my life. winter.

hope everyone had a good weekend!

my cousin ali and i are gonna be roommates at purdue!! i'm so excited.

my life is confusing right now. i have no reasons to be sad... but i am.

i think i need help again.

oh well. we'll see.

school sucks this year.. i really need to pull my grades up.. damnit.

I GOT INTO PURDUE!!!!!!!!!!! oh man. i'm excited, can ya tell?? haha

today was good day. school kinda sucked and dragged on forever and ever!

then i hung out with derek, we went to edie's to help her curl her hair. then we went to watch the forte preview show, it was pretty good, it had cool music. then we went to joe's crab shack to visit becca, which was cool. they have good food, except i dont like seafood. haha. oh well. then we just went back to my house. it was awesome getting to see derek, cuz i hadnt seen him since tuesday!!! so yeah.

thats about all that happened in my day.

i gots work 2mrw at 12 and then 5 so..i'll be a busy little beaver!! haha

ttfn!! hehe